Without a doubt I need therapy! Why oh why can't I say no to my aunt Renee? I mean I seriously do not want to go to my sister's wedding!!! But I just can't say NO!!! Alright I'm not crazy, but I have deep rooted issues when it comes to gossiping family. Normally a person brushes family gossip aside and I do but sometimes you just can't.
It's no secret that my sister and I do not get along. We haven't ever since that night my phone was on vibrate because I had a new spring semester schedule that was 12 hours long and I didn't get a chance to call and tell her I won't be able to go to kick boxing. Being the understanding person that she is the next morning she was already telling everyone what an ungrateful bitch I was and started her silent treatment. By the way she's 12 years older than me and I'm 25 so do the math.
So finally after many many years she is finally getting married. To be fair I wish her happiness and hope her husband-to-be won't be shocked when she finally let's her true personality out. But that's another issue and today I want to talk about why did she invite me and why can't I say NO?
I mean the truth is that I will be very uncomfortable the whole night. First our father won't even be there, because surprise they don't get along (she's been giving him the silence treatment for more than ten years). Next she has never acknowledged our little sister. So in other words we are just invited so that people will not talk. But the truth is that people will talk but not about her about my little sis and I. And that hurts but it's not like I've been given a choice and since financially I have no means to run away I'm stuck going to this event that literally makes me sick.
Not sick in the sense that it makes me nauseas but that it stresses me so much that I literally get a virus or some other disease again and again. This is not voluntary but something my body does when I'm stressed out. I've always had a weak immune system so when I'm stressed I literally catch whatever is floating in the air.
Honestly I wish she didn't invite me then I wouldn't be in this situation!!!
Sunday, September 23, 2007
I am such a wimp!!!
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